You shine so bright it's insane,
You put the Sun to shame.



Air in rubber thangs the bombz

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Was it something I said
Or something I never did
Or was I always in the way


Hellooooo, couldn't sleep last night insomnia insomnia insomnia. Slept at 2, flipped around bed till 4, woke up at 6 to realise I havent been sleeping and been flipping around my bed. Gotta start sleeping at the correct hours, been sleeping at 2/3/4/5/6/7am. O: Thankgod, break from trng this week or I'll be so zonked.
I want to sleep. Properly.

My toenails are red. :D

Drink drank drunkkkkkkk, 24 dec 24 dec, Christmas eve yo yo yo yo yo :D

FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML.

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Saw on magazine a metallic toga with silver sequins. Love die love die love die.
It's not on the web anymore ):
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It's like this with striped sequins :D
http://ohsofickle.com.sg/index.php/black-fringe-toga.html


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(Wetlook) dress yay yay yay

http://reveneera.livejournal.com/5659.html#cutid1

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Romperzxsszxxszx. Heeeee.

http://kizzofgoddess.livejournal.com/20980.html



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My phone is enjoying playing Tonight and Fall for you and Stay close dont go and Try one after another. ZZZ

Remember not to lead people on,
Who's playing with who
Meh.



FRED FTW. ♥♥♥♥♥

We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones that love us.

I blurt out I want a nape and wrist piercing. Daddy and Sis STRONGLYGLYGLY REJECTED MEEEEE NO. Now I want hair extns and am getting them in Mlys , heeeeee.
Ive got pretty nails. OMG HOW AM I T VOLLEYBALL. Oh trng hours are maddddd, taking leave. This week is for sgidol and chalet and math. Math tmr and whole week at 9am 9am 9am, oh I found my watch my watch my waaaaaaatch. I am to sleep by 2am everyday and go out twice a week at most. Or I'll be fined. We have this Sunday family meetings now. Room's gna be painted ourselves with skyscrapers and eiffel tower and hearts and a tree and vintagy things and birds and a mirror is gonna be installed and so looking forward. But I gotta finish my work first, my sis forced out from me this homework schedule and I realise the hmwks can be finished. Yay, I ate alot of food this weekend but my BMI's a healthy 18. Healthy I think. Transparent hairband the bombz. ^^V

"P/s: I'm laughing. your bimbosity might not detect the subtle nuances of my sarcastic reply."
Indian damn evilllllllllllllllll ):

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I may just die after suffering from mental breakdown and no one knows why I have a mental breakdown or died since I don't tell anyone or keep a diary or have a weird brain-thoughts recording device at home. ):

I have so hackin' much to say.

): homo bitch slut fag make out make out make out sex sex sex sex sex HAHAHA GOODNIGHT. Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine Fine.



The best time to find yourself is when you're lost. It's in your head & no one else's. You need to calm down. Stop. Breathe. Cry if you must.
If you find out, you’ll probably think that i’m some pathetic and vulnerable loser. But i dont understand, just that one move you make could cause such change in my life. We have drifted so far apart in a week. From someone I could pour my troubles out to to a complete stranger.
I couldnt believe I told her I'd want to try the feeling of getting hurt. Too many people loved me and I wanted to have a foot in getting heartbroken and experiencing all the mope-y stuff I see on the internet. I thought it was pretty fun. Until now.
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?
Even if I don't like it. I like feeling close to you, even though now I know you couldn't care less.


Sometimes, it’s easier to say that you’re fine instead of having to explain all the reasons why you’re not.

Unmanly's

date/time sunday, september 27, 2009,2:32 am

I'm not that funny.
I'm not that fun.
I'm not all that.

I do regret.
I do wish time could rewind.

But sometimes it's just easier to forget.
And that's what I do.
I forget.

But then I remember.
And I hurt all over again.
Because what I said that night.
Wasn't even half true.

I do want to love.
I do like to love.
I do like you.

And I should have told you.

But.
What if you didn't like the way I talked.
What if you found out I wasn't happy all the time.
What if you realised that my jokes weren't even funny half the time.
What if.

I don't even know what it is that I feel for you.
I just know that I would give up these five months.
Everything that happened in that five months.
Just to have told you the truth.

That I do like you.
That I've liked you for. God. The longest time.
That I do want to go out with you. Even if it might not work out.

But I'm scared.
So. Damn. Scared.
Scared to even talk to you.
Scared to even laugh around you.

How could you even want to listen to me.
How could you even want know me anymore.
Because you must hate me.
Hell, even I hate myself for what I said.

Because I took that one chance I had for happiness.
And screwed it all up.
Just because of my 'What If's'
And my stupid fears.

And I miss it.
Everything.
The songs. The talks. The dumbass-ness.

And I'd give anything just to talk to you again.
But even if you talked to me now.
I'd probably feign ignorance.

How am I supposed to tell you it hurts to think of you.
How am I supposed to tell you that I moved just so I wouldn't see you every time I looked in front.
How am I supposed to tell you that half of my happiest memories of the past years were with you.
How am I supposed to tell you I still sing that song I thought up in class.
How am I supposed to tell you I named my blog after a name you thought up.

But I guess it's over.
This is all.
We'll probably just go on with our lives now.
Because that's so much easier than talking.

I'm sorry.



Okay, all above are unmanly's rantings last time. I managed to salvage it just when he deleted it so I thought it's a waste to throw something so nice away, from a guy somemore! Loser only. I told him to keep for his grandchildren to see but now I'm supposed to shelve it in my archives until god knows when and give it back to him when he turns fifty. Awesome huh.

WENJIE the manly WiKiKiU says:
aiya
u help me keep la
when i 50

says:
ITs on my screen nowwwww
NO
THATS WHAT AN ARCHIVE IS FOR

WENJIE the manly WiKiKiU says:
hahaha

says:
JASLYN IS FOR EATING AND SHOPPING

WENJIE the manly WiKiKiU says:
BUT LIKE SO LOSER
I DELETE ALREADY

says:
NOOOOOOOO
NOOOOOO

WENJIE the manly WiKiKiU says:
THEN I GO TAKE BACK

says:
but its so beautiful
you know this is rare from guys

WENJIE the manly WiKiKiU says:
haha
but
later the girl read
then she think i still like her
then like
so bad


Yea so he doesnt like her anymore, No more magic, so he says.
Hahahah K thx bai. Hungry, food and icy towers then bed!

Wanna be on top?

Coach told us Afghan woman burn themselves to death.
They burn themselves cos there is no way out
They burn themselves cos there is no other way to kill themselves
They burn themselves cos their husbands illtreat them, so does the society
They burn themselves cos in their social hierachys, Men comes first, then children second, THEN GOATS THIRD (WTF?!), then women last.
The place stones people! Like if you get raped it's your fault? And if you get touched by men it's your fault too. Womens fault womens fault womens fault. Fat fuck.
The place for the poor women who burn themselves, the oldest girl is 20. Youngest? 12. She got married at 7, had her first child at 12. And wants to burn herself. What's this world coming to!
Yet I think of the happy women there, there's got to be.
Smiling to themselves everyday, how fortunate they are to have nice husbands and some status in the family. (:

Wanna be on top? You get all the things you want, yet you miss the small little good things below. Wonders what is is like to be on top. To be successful like in everything? To have people cheering everytime you even enter. Things would be alright if you erred, maybe even funny. You are given the benefit of doubt when others aren't. Especially the losers. Everything you do is legendary. Everything is right. People listen even if they don't want to. People can't help but agree. But as much as life is unfair, I believe we exchange things for one another in life. Would they have a mentally challenged sibling? Would their grandparents be unable to live as long? Are they less loved by their family? Do they cry at home every night at their almost perfect yet imperfect life. Everyone has their problems.

Talking about everyone, everyone seems to be saying IM OKAY IM OKAY. But all of the friends are like NO YOU ARE NOT OKAY ,ARE YOU OKAY? Everyone goes YES I AM. Friends go NO YOU ARE NOT LIAR SLUTTY BITCH ARE YOU OKAY. Warmness of friends, (L). Yet this just means this is the everyone-isnt-okay period. But it's a nice feeling, everyone being cherished and cherishing each other and all. (Y)

Very cool. Many people suddenly talking to me this few days, I don't feel like people come to me when they need me, I feel I know alot of secrets all of a sudden hahaha but it feels good to be trusted (Y). K I am talking like a retard like so many (Y)s and (like) cos of facebook. I got what the hell- ed by Cherie. Khei. Khei. Khei. I like the word Khei. And Meishan is not Meishan she is Mei. :D Enjoyed talking to snrs, miss them aplenty and always offering to help me w studies! Met up with Jenny tdy too!

Don't let your feelings get to your head, keep them in your heart. Cos theyre in your head , not your heart, you don't give your all. When you turn to look back, the view isn't really all that great. You don't give, cos you dont want to get hurt but people dont get the best of what you could give and everything will turn out all it shouldnt have. Everything that could have been, wouldnt exist. Only with memories to keep and nothing else. It's the same feeling how I always have to squeeze up the 74 bus packed with so many people and when I alight I am the forever the last passenger upstairs. (Oh I do not dare to turn back later got humans appear how) Okay it is late and I am starting to talk rubbish.

If it rains means no beach volleyball tmr. If it doesnt means beach volleyball t Sentosa thats 3 bucks then studying after that. Yes.

I'm starting to suck at minesweeper noooooo. I hate woo tuop. I want chi dang dang. I hate the sound of woo tuop now, hate it. CHI DANG DANG.

I shouldnt get so happy to see that my name is mentioned. I shouldnt I shouldnt, that kind of life belongs to you guys not me . I shouldntttttt. Maybe it is more relief than joy, oh well. Glad its in a humourous way. TOUCHE.
I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me.
Papa, Paparazzi.
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I'll keep my eyes, patiently focused, on you,
where are you know?

Cause i am, I'm lost without you.

Young and stupid

Hello, at wenjie's hahahah daddy coming to pick me up!
Wenjie Ivan JianK Ryan playing majong behind me.
Pei's homed, Junxi in kitchen using laptop O:

STEAMBOAT GREAT, HAVENT HAD SO MUCH FOOD ALL TOGETHER IN A WHILE HAHAH :D GNA PAY ICY TOWERS IN FBBBBBBBBBB.

Pictures when I home ^^.

Ta.

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"I was only joking my dear
Looking for a way to hide my fear."
Everyone has fears. Small fears, medium fears, big fears.

Looking at Prom photos now on facebook, Wenjie's sister from Crescent Girls' has livestream prom on their portal! Cool or what.
I wanna piercings. Hahaha, not at the same old ear cos when I'm old there'll be many saggy holes in my ear which is gross. I want a wrist and a nape piercing, hahahah $$$.
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Ohhhhhhhhhh, look look look:
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Kodak Zi8.
The camera's only 5mp. I don't think it's super good kind but still, a new gadget on the block.
Looks cute being a pocket camera/camcorder.

(Pictures)
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Volleyball noticeboard! :
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Awesome homework, more to come :
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OMG GOT PEOPLE CRASH PROM.

Katie, don't cry

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Are your legs tired? Cause you've been running through my mind.
Laughs.

Miserable at best

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“ We wonder why black and white photo’s capture our soul. I think it’s cause
without color, we aren’t drawn to the makeup, and the color of our eyes, or how
tan our skin is. Black and white captures the innocence on one’s face and the
hurt they’ve gone through to feel vulnerable. The glow we see comes from inside,
brightening our eyes, our skin, and our smile. "

Hello, RIBBONS RIBBONSZXZXZXWWWW. Hahaha C:
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Ok, look. This is from Xiaxue's guide to life, tieing your hair with a stick, e.g. pencil. n_n
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Ok, with so many pictures, I must not be doing my work. BUT THAT IS SO UNTRUE. Behold my work, I've completed 3 Binomial theorem and 2 Remainder and factor theorem. And slept for many hours in between, cos I'm sick and the weather is godlike for napping. It's very little done, but I'll keep woking harder! :D Now that trainings are less days and extra lessons are gone and Volleyball tournaments are over, more work can be done, woohoo. Study, escape, good cause (Y). Stop swearing, and be a good guniang. :D

I dreamt weird dreams.
HAHA, Dream one. Tessa's got short hair, the same colour as her current colour. A short bob, like that:
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Yay Victoria Beckhammmmm. (L) Okay, back to story. Yea so I was shocked and was like "Tesssaaaaaa, why you cut your hair!" But she looked good. Gorgeous. I think that girl will still look good even if she gets her hair cut by any trashy roadside hairstylist. I abhor pretty people , so jealous inducing.

Dream two. It's a shitty dream through and through. Hahaha, feel like laughing just thinking about it. Tok yun kai , toktoktok, erica. Haha she has this fake Louis Vuitton. Then it only had the Ls. The Vs were missing. So I used a 2B pencil to draw the Vs on. I drew 3 and a half Vs, and erased them away cos they looked awful. I wanted to give the bag to a maid when I remembered it's Tok's. Haha. So I erased the Vs and returned it to her.

End of dreams. Lousy dreams. I remember my dream about a lion in the safari chasing my entire family. I remember missing my primary school teacher I dreamt 4 different dreams about her. I remember the dream when me and my sister were both kids and we took the wheel of our father's car the machine went berserk. I remember the first dream about you, too. I was weeping on my bedroom floor when you appeared like magic and assured me and hugged me to sleep. teeheee. I forgot if I even told you about it but it doesn't matter. :D Shameless dream, hahaha. Don't care, Happy like that, hahaha.

Dave says:
i know you're a feelingless iron woman la can or not
(LIKE.)

Hey I like that word on the msn game. Synch up. So cool. Synch Synch Synch. Lost to Hairil on msn checkers again, damn. 2-0, shitass. Hairil that bear/cat/307 (hahaha), now like all-time msn games buddy. O:

And Omar K. texted me after reading the blog post below, hahaha. Thanks Omar. Only one person but doesn't matter, hahaha. I added traffic counter, expected 20+, but there were 39 views, \n-n/ (L).

"Don't build your happiness at the expense of others' suffering", the saying goes.
Sometimes, it really isn't anyone's fault, is it. Love is selfish, so are people. If others' got their way, you wouldn't get yours. If you got your way, others' wouldn't get theirs. People get hurt. Processes are complicated. Yet not doing anything at all means you haven't even tried. So, go. Go bask in that little pool of happiness that this time, you won. But don't let it get over the top till it gets your head swelling.
People all move on. Only the dead don't get to move on. Moving on may be difficult, it may seem impossible. Like when someone dies, people grief. They may grief for days, months, even years. But at the end of the day, the living will still see a day they smile. Be it after hearing a joke, or accomplishing something. They move on, but the dead don't. It's a matter of choices. If you're living, that is. Smile, for the dead who don't get a chance to anymore.

Blogging like that, modernisation has coined this style to be "emo", after reading Meishan's "love" blog post. It's like powerful, say woah with capital letters. "WOAH." But it's not emo, it's power-powder-ful. :D I like the name Heroes of Heartache. Dear Juliet's nice, check this out yo,

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I just need to slow down for a while
I'm missing your warm smile
And the way you used to say
"Stay with me till the daylight breaks
No matter what it takes
Just say you'll stay"

I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

-Never Change by Dear Juliet.

Ogay, (jessin, laughs), It's really cold, get your blankets, comforters, jackets, windbreakers, hoodies, hot drinks, warmer packs people. Hope everyone's warm enough to feel comfortable and warm, huddled in bed cuddling with your gay little toys. Can't imagine how cold it'd be in Genting. Can't wait for steamboat tmr! :D Gonna take cough mixture and get drowsy and sleep, the best!

Lust, but not the least (hehehe)
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Woohoo, gap pullover! Cheryl says the fox one is up at 26 bucks only hahahaha.

worn out places, worn our faces

I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
it's a very very Mad world

I miss you you you you you.

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I suddenly miss everyone so damn much.
Thnky bitch for texting me (L), if you even see this at all.
I am seriously lacking in initiative, should I text everyone who has been on my mind?

If you feel like dying, go ahead. No one's stopping you.
The sad thing is not that you feel like dying, but the fact no one's stopping you.
How many times have I repeated this, it plays in my brain, goshhhhhh.

I'm getting all weak being reminded of things. Weakling, wake up wake up to reality mummy oh no. It's okay to imagine , right? You just have to get yourself in the right frame of mind it'll never ever, happen. But imagination is delusional, screams the devil in my subconscious brain. But can't I just bask in the happiness of it. I'm entitled to my own emotions. It's not because someone's been through something greater than me, or felt sadder should I be denied my emotions. Yes. Oh, I'm so fucked.
I wonder if everyone's better, I want everyone to be better. Damn am I just using everyone as an excuse.

Under this moon under this rain under this sky of night,
I wonder if you're doing fine. I wonder if I ever crossed your mind. Or even the thought of me crossing your mind crossed your mind. Or the thought of something else is just so overpowering nothing else is in your consideration, all the rest left alone to call out, to hope, to keep on hoping. Deserted, unwanted, neglected. Yet the sad thing is nothing will actually even happen at all. There are no stars tonight.

TEXT ME IF YOU SEE THIS. ANYONE. I MISS THE WORLD LIKE NO ONE'S ALIVEEEE. (L) to bits. Hehehehe.

Still, always look on the bright side of life! Lookin' forward to studying tmr(Mon), American Sch friendly on Tue, Sgidol news from Gerald on Wed, and WENJIE'S FOR STEAMBOAT ON TUE, YAYMUAHAHAYADAGHAHAHAMAMA.
Why is orange taking up the most space? Oh boy oh boy, you said you loved it best.


(au) says:
we are not
we suck at studied know that
we are the legendary batch that will be pulling andss to band 2/3
we have 13 retainees, 6 are from special/express.
We have 10 points added to our html paper so we can make the mark AS A LEVEL
Our math msg got to 9.
See, do you see itttttttt. Omg so depressing.

Study study, don't you see.


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