“ From the corner of my eye, I see a glimpse of you. My heart is just about to burst into butterflies, but my mind scolds & says “Control yourself, you know that this boy isn’t right for you anymore."
Hi. My comp crashed.
No training for a week , feels fat. Going training tmr. Burn fats ,burn burn burn rot in hell. Week was awesome, been to chalet and sgidol and Ikea and Singapore expo and homework is progressing so slowlyyyyyy. Talking about chalets, this holiday has 5 chalets in store, it's crazy. Go for all and half the holidays gone. I only can paint my room after I've finished all my homework, why isn't it motivating me! Gotta work extra hard for Math, no more tuition for me, cos its like useless and expensive ): Mood's like )(*&^%$#@!, down to the dumps a day, happy like there's no tomorrow another. Adjust adjust. On a lighter note, Sister getting Cameraaaaa yay. TODAY IS FIRST DECEMBER, OMG. Minus all the activity going on, last week masteries too, school is starting. I miss Kelly Blue Tunic. Schools starting late next year! 740, 840. Happiness. Hectic. Ditch fb, ditch blogger. Impossibility. O levels. Prom. Buy a boyfriend. Move along. Haha.
Wednesday was chaotic. I travelled around the whole Singapore. Red line purple line green line hahaha.
Morning, Left home at 8, reached school at 10.
Midmorning, Math in school till 1130.
Afternoon, Bused amk to hougang home to change and took stuff
Afternoon, Bused back to amk hub to meet people
Late afternoon, 3+ bused super long bus ride amk-tampines otw to chalet
Late afternoon, 4+ discovered no time to go chalet at Changi, rushed to yishun by bus then train
Late late afternoon, 5+ at Ivan house meet Pei and Van.
Early evening, 6+ cabbed down to mediacorp to catch sgidol
Night, 9+ bused to thompson prata house ate prata (M/cheese worth 4 bucks per piece O:)
Late night, 11+ bused to Bishan nearest mrt met Bitch!
Late night, 12+ last train otw to Pasir Ris alone
)(*&^%$#@! Hour cabbed from p/r to Changi Village meet chalet people
Sat my butt around and the next day I am labelled abnormal for not being tired and after having lunch with clique, walked the whole tampines one on my own before going to hougang mall's library and then Home. Sourced many good buys. Jumps.
People make clothes look good.
Clothes don't make people look good.
That's why clothes with fat, huge tags should be avoided.
Pictures ahead, followed by misc. which you may choose not to absorb in. Unhealthy. Pheartache P heartache P heartache, mostly. This is total spam. I like deprived kid uh, too long not on comp. Oh look at the time! I'm past my curfew. Pearl please don't be seeing this.
Ivan's nice room painted by wenjie and pei too.
My anorexic-looking arm.
The many people.
Timothy the taitai in Hawaii.
Dancing wenjie in the carpark.
Awesome crowd.
Another everyone shot cept Wenjie.
This self-taken one of him is supposed to be photoshopped to the above photo.
The one who got us all the tix.
Pei bringing sexyback. Sicko Wj.
Tim with the fakies, hahaha
Guy group like bengs like that! Hahahaha.
Good food you oughta be jealous of. Getting hungry already.
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If I walk would you run, If I stop would you come?
If I said you're the one, would you believe me?
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Happy gramps, gran.
I got cornrows, you die alr.
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Happy cousin with improved art.
Daddy act yi ge.
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When you wake up during breakfast time with no food. I cooked with sis. (: I didn't know anything, I followed instructions.
Pearl shot this supposedly cool-looking orangeyred goo. Oddly, at this angle.
Weird condo. Strange developers.
It was becoming clear to me that I shouldn't be bothered to get too attached to anything.
Turn your back and you lose it.
Just like that.--The truth about forever
Haha quiz:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
“ Sometimes we lie because it’s easier than telling the truth. Sometimes we lie because we need to forget. Sometimes we lie because you don’t want to tell her she looks fat in those jeans. Sometimes we lie because fantasy is better than reality. Sometimes we lie because it’s too painful to tell the truth. Sometimes we lie because we think it’s the truth. Sometimes we lie because it’s faster to do so. Sometimes we lie because you need to get out of something. Sometimes we lie because life can’t wait. Sometimes we lie because pain is not an option. Sometimes we lie because there is nothing better to do. Sometimes we lie because we need to turn attention away from ourselves. Sometimes we lie because we don’t know what else to do. Sometimes we lie because we don’t want to tell children there isn’t a Santa Claus. Sometimes we lie because it gives us a laugh. Sometimes we lie because sarcasm gives emphasis. Sometimes we lie because we need to prove a point. Sometimes we lie because everyone needs a break once in a while. Sometimes we lie because an alibi is needed. Sometimes we lie because a surprise is being planned. Sometimes we lie because we could lose money. Sometimes we lie because we want to keep a friend. Sometimes we lie because we are instructed to. Sometimes we lie because money is offered. Sometimes we lie because revenge is sweet. Sometimes we lie because we would like to hurt someone emotionally. Sometimes we lie because agreeing is easier than debating. Sometimes we lie because we are scared and rarely do we ever tell the truth.
Feel sad when you think back.
Cry about it.
Be mad at yourself for even feeling.
It doesn't matter, we pick up our own pieces.It just happens on the sly in the wee hours of the morning and the dead of the night.Then everyone fronts up with nice clothes, pretty make up, printed smiles, and fronts it all up.
So many people out there.
“ This is for the broken-hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and every day now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see it. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this..