saw a hugeass rainbow outside my bus window it's been so long since I've seen one (happy dance)

Maybe I only have myself to blame all along, to keep things close when you can't have it. Which is selfish. And wrong. And misleading. And confusing. Mind over matter in this case, it's not even what I want! So what's gotten into me. Reminder to self not to commit actions which are just easy ways out of a situation, or to ease current emotions. Remember to consider others' feelings, that effects always have a cause and that boredom or the crave for instant gratification is never an acceptable excuse to mislead others.

I WISH YOU KNEW I WISH TO WISH TO KNOW WHAT YOU WISH

Moments that catch you when you least expected are the best ones. Like Caleb caring for me even though he's a small boy and likes to piss me off. Like, I get really pissed!!

Missed smoochies at SIM damn. But I can't wait for 1-for-1 FILET O FISH OMG SO MANY FOOD DEALS NOW SO HAPPY. Starbucks and KFC and Macs but some are already over.

Soooooo tomorrow's finally ACID and I finally got 9 hours of sleep last night what a relief after the hectic handupallyourassignments&nosleep period.

I AM SO ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE WITH GOOD PHYSIQUE

In the end everything boils down to studies. It's where you get respect. And I want to be respected, to be good in something. KNOW THAT FEELING? I WANNA BE GOOD FOR SOMETHING.

How come it bothers me I feel like I'm not getting to people at school the way I got to people in Anderson? And it kind of bothers me how a close talk to someone or after watching a movie can affect immensely and make believe so fervently in thing. Which I will realise after a while that it's in my mind and isn't reality, it isn't me at all.

Pft

Come Friday I will be hosting ACID's launch night (check it out guys abm having zocard adverts in vans and frolick and some places woohoo the pride) and my pimple marks are scarring my nose ):<

P.s. 5:14AM and I said I'll finish up my essays at, like, 10 hours ago dayum

I WANT YOU

Maybe I'm for nothing but my past cos the things I've seen and the images in my head and the things I know now are on the road of the grand endless unknown discovery for others out there so for that I'll never fit there beside them. Or be worthy to.

I meant the shoe YESSSSSS DA SHOEEEEEEEE I need shoes too

SO EXCITED

CAN'T WAIT TO GET SO MUCH SLEEP TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWW

Assignments will be done and
Left with ACID and
Left with Econs test which I will have 3 days to study for after ACID and

omg I just swept at a bug on my paper and it was so fragile it fragmented into pieces and died oh no what have I done I'm so sorry

as I was saying

and Econs test and
chalet with Tan + people
and picnic with andss volleyballers guess I can't make it for chalet nor bbq for ACID
and baking
and reading
maybe writing
maybe a new image and
I need more clothes
and OFF TO MALAYSIA OMG HOLIDAYS WHAT YES HOLIDAYS OMG SDKNFDKLWNVRKENGKLNERGKRDNEG

gonna shop and eat and sleep and exercise and read up on assignments and if possible find materials and meet group but I don't think that that is possible. Maybe I should make it an outing and set a trap and they turn up and we discuss for a bit and then go out. HAHA WHY AM I HAVING SUCH THOUGHTS. Okay anyway it has been a busy Sem but I understand my modules and they are ok to cope with so I hope the rest of the assignments will stay this way and my GPA can go up! I have hopes I must say and I hope that I won't disappoint myself. Oh a hope in a hope INCEPTION ok think I'm nuts got 1600-456=1144 more words to go for my essays and I'm off to my brighter tomorrow hahahahahahahahaha ok hahahahahahahaha

I'm proud of my course, and I don't like outsiders to belittle us nor question our worth, especially as compared to arts schools. One day we'll make our mark and you doubtful people will look back and laugh at how foolish you were.

To Write Love On Her Arms

She owns attitude and humor beyond her 19 years, and when she tells me her story, she is humble and quiet and kind, shaped by the pain of a hundred lifetimes. I sit privileged but breaking as she shares. Her life has been so dark yet there is some soft hope in her words, and on consecutive evenings, I watch the prettiest girls in the room tell her that she's beautiful.