Ache, not hurt

Don't you hate that feeling which you once felt proud of yourself but now when you look back all you feel is a aching embarrassment and wish you knew then what you know now?

I believe in the good of people, not the bad. C:

But it's still sad, no? of what could be so much more.

The secret was a hole in the middle of me that every happy thing fell into. You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness. I think and think and think, I‘ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.
— Jonathan Safran Foer

"Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall."
— Jodi Picoult