Sometimes I feel like
If people actually bothered and cared enough to ask, I wouldn't mind spewing out my entire life story to them.
When this is over don't blow your composure
Every atom of my being can't stop wondering why or how things have turned out this way and I can't seem to care less. I'm thinking I will now take the image of being an annoyance but I don't know what else I have to capacity to be anymore.
Suckle on the hope in lite brasseire
You're such a mystery, a far off island no one else sees.
Everyone seems like ordinary people with just brief exchanges on the outside, the surface of our souls. It is when one person opens up, and everyone opens up one by one. That's when the magic happens. People aren't just the dull walking dead. We become mobile bodies of emotions, a hurricane of encounters, gushing rivers of pensiveness. A non-stop flow, we all meet in the sea.
Everyone seems like ordinary people with just brief exchanges on the outside, the surface of our souls. It is when one person opens up, and everyone opens up one by one. That's when the magic happens. People aren't just the dull walking dead. We become mobile bodies of emotions, a hurricane of encounters, gushing rivers of pensiveness. A non-stop flow, we all meet in the sea.
Ah company, that's nice.
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My procrastinating abilities are unmatchable and I dont appreciate that of myself.
I feel like I've lost my confident self, both on how I feel on my physical appearances and worth and in my studies.
I have visited many friends' places and they have really beautiful homes and are rich and I wonder if I have the ability to reach there on my own. I have no specific ambition and have zero knowledge on the adult things -- bank loans, insurance and the like. Would I know how, or what, to do? A friend once read my palm and she said I would lead a short life, or have an illness but overcome it and continue to live, but not so healthily. The thing she said which scared me most, was that I would job hop for a while and not know what I want before I settled down. Why believe in palm-reading? I am a realist. But the things you hear are the things you think about.
I don't get why people enter a course of study in polytechnic then hate it, I love what I'm doing and am happy for my friends who feel the same -- the way they finally find themselves. It's just that for now I have lost motivation and that is such a pity because the semester is already coming to an end and here I am, losing it at the last lap.
I feel like I've lost my confident self, both on how I feel on my physical appearances and worth and in my studies.
I have visited many friends' places and they have really beautiful homes and are rich and I wonder if I have the ability to reach there on my own. I have no specific ambition and have zero knowledge on the adult things -- bank loans, insurance and the like. Would I know how, or what, to do? A friend once read my palm and she said I would lead a short life, or have an illness but overcome it and continue to live, but not so healthily. The thing she said which scared me most, was that I would job hop for a while and not know what I want before I settled down. Why believe in palm-reading? I am a realist. But the things you hear are the things you think about.
I don't get why people enter a course of study in polytechnic then hate it, I love what I'm doing and am happy for my friends who feel the same -- the way they finally find themselves. It's just that for now I have lost motivation and that is such a pity because the semester is already coming to an end and here I am, losing it at the last lap.
Hello
Being happy -- what came naturally to you now has to be reacquired. BECAUSE OF ME I AM SO SORRY
I can't post on tumblr I have too many friends there who do not know, or do not understand, and will question me and I get all shy and awkward haha
I can't post on tumblr I have too many friends there who do not know, or do not understand, and will question me and I get all shy and awkward haha
saw a hugeass rainbow outside my bus window it's been so long since I've seen one (happy dance)
Maybe I only have myself to blame all along, to keep things close when you can't have it. Which is selfish. And wrong. And misleading. And confusing. Mind over matter in this case, it's not even what I want! So what's gotten into me. Reminder to self not to commit actions which are just easy ways out of a situation, or to ease current emotions. Remember to consider others' feelings, that effects always have a cause and that boredom or the crave for instant gratification is never an acceptable excuse to mislead others.
I WISH YOU KNEW I WISH TO WISH TO KNOW WHAT YOU WISH
Moments that catch you when you least expected are the best ones. Like Caleb caring for me even though he's a small boy and likes to piss me off. Like, I get really pissed!!
Missed smoochies at SIM damn. But I can't wait for 1-for-1 FILET O FISH OMG SO MANY FOOD DEALS NOW SO HAPPY. Starbucks and KFC and Macs but some are already over.
Soooooo tomorrow's finally ACID and I finally got 9 hours of sleep last night what a relief after the hectic handupallyourassignments&nosleep period.
I AM SO ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE WITH GOOD PHYSIQUE
In the end everything boils down to studies. It's where you get respect. And I want to be respected, to be good in something. KNOW THAT FEELING? I WANNA BE GOOD FOR SOMETHING.
How come it bothers me I feel like I'm not getting to people at school the way I got to people in Anderson? And it kind of bothers me how a close talk to someone or after watching a movie can affect immensely and make believe so fervently in thing. Which I will realise after a while that it's in my mind and isn't reality, it isn't me at all.
Missed smoochies at SIM damn. But I can't wait for 1-for-1 FILET O FISH OMG SO MANY FOOD DEALS NOW SO HAPPY. Starbucks and KFC and Macs but some are already over.
Soooooo tomorrow's finally ACID and I finally got 9 hours of sleep last night what a relief after the hectic handupallyourassignments&nosleep period.
I AM SO ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE WITH GOOD PHYSIQUE
In the end everything boils down to studies. It's where you get respect. And I want to be respected, to be good in something. KNOW THAT FEELING? I WANNA BE GOOD FOR SOMETHING.
How come it bothers me I feel like I'm not getting to people at school the way I got to people in Anderson? And it kind of bothers me how a close talk to someone or after watching a movie can affect immensely and make believe so fervently in thing. Which I will realise after a while that it's in my mind and isn't reality, it isn't me at all.
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